Wednesday, April 29, 2009

being sick totally sucks. especially since i am nose-blowing challenged and my nose is dripping to my knees. my left nostril is completely nonfunctioning. relief will come tomorrow when i can sit at work and not refill babas, and wait for puppies to potty, and chase my 3 yr old up the stairs 17 times until he goes to sleep, and hold both of my children at the same time because one of them is afraid the other will take me away for ever- thats what it means when brother sits on mommy's lap right?



why am i not in bed.



i need to go get into bed and finish Rockabye (by rebecca woolf, author of Girls Gone Child) which is getting entirely too dramatic for me. every chapter is turning into how she doesn't fit in with the "average" mom. and how she desperately never ever ever wants to be like the other mothers with the kids in the matching gap sweaters. listen here, rebecca... THEY WERE ON SALE.



i may be getting irritated because i have this peeve about people who try constantly to be unlike everyone else so bad that they turn self centered and judgemental and just plain annoying about it.



in this one chapter she talks about freaking out at a mommy and me play group while they are all sitting around singing songs like row your boat and the itsy bitsy spider. all the mothers were all the same and their kids were dressed all the same and she just couldnt take it. what? the itsy bitsy spider is an okay song... it never bothered me that its not indie. so she makes up her own words to these songs. whatever lady.



although this being indie and different and not fitting in part is annoying i really do love the rest of the book and her honesty about motherhood and unplanned parenting and brand new marriage. and she really is a great writer. and i love relating to her obsession with her son. but seriously, get over being unlike everyone else and just be comfortable in your own skin. i promise... no one cares.



maybe i'm just grumpy because my nose doesn't work.



boho chic baby clothes are pretty cute though, in all their not-a -gap-sweater glory.

check out rebecca's daughter Fable's darling outfits here if only i had the time to put this much thought into my kids' outfits. sweaters and tights and shoes and layers and oh my. my kids are lucky they have clean clothes. even if i did pull them out of the pile of clean laundry in the basket in the hall needing to be folded. which reminds me...

...Joshua?

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Prospect flowergirl dresses

These are all custom-made dresses from Etsy.com stores.
Kim's colors are teal and black with hot pink flowers.
All of the bridesmaids will be wearing black, but she suggested Addison wear white with a teal ribbon or something similar. I'm not sure miss Kim is aware of the Etsy wonder world so I plan to introduce her to these DARLING dresses and see if she likes.... 'cause I likes.

Because these are all customizable she can pick and choose elements from all of them... eventhough she suggested white for Addy I think in this day and age 1.5 yr olds can totally pull off black just like the bridesmaids (no matter what her daddy says... he says she shouldnt get her ears pierced at this age either- what does he know). SO, what do you think of black tulle, pink flower, teal ribbon? teal tulle and ribbon with pink flower? white tulle and ribbon with pink flower plus teal ribbon design?

I have to say I was not into the black tulle until I saw the picture below.

My favorite dress deisgn so far is the one with two ribbons over each arm that tie into two bows in the back (picture below- baby with headband).

But then, the teal damask dress is so classy and just darling. Love that too. replace brown ribbon with black- voila!



Your input is valued. :o)









Double ribbons pictured here.
















so you have to picture this one without the weird bun things in her hair...














black?

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

my fam dam

so listen to this...

watching the duggars on TLC and they go to the christian film festival and see Fireproof, starring Kirk Cameron (what a cutie... and he has 6 kids- holy crap), and then later get to meet him. I have yet to see the movie but apparently there's a scene at the end of the movie where the couple share a passionate kiss. one of the little duggar boys askes mom if the couple is married... and she says yes. so when they meet Kirk they ask him about that scene, and he says that in order to honor the marriage in the film and also his own marriage they had his wife come to the set and dress as the actress to share the kiss with her hubby.
i just thought that was the sweetest thing.
speaking of sweet things, tomorrow is wednesday and that means joshua is off! yay!

i'd also like to report that he hasn't smoked in almost three weeks. i am so relieved and so proud of him. i've also noticed that he's one million trillion times more attractive and cuddly when he doesn't smell like 7eleven. i never would have guessed i'd marry a smoker. well, he didn't smoke when i married him... then he did. gross. i never would have guessed i'd be a mother of two at 23 years old either.

i have to say that i am more relieved about my life since becoming a mom than i ever was. being pregnant with tate really put the fact that God is in control in capital letters. Jesus has called me to be a mom- and i love it.

but.
there are days when i sit back and say what happened? i'm not going to school, i can't support myself and my kids if something were to ever happen to josh, i don't really have a job, and right now my future is kindergarden and potty training yet another child. i think i've started the motherly battle all of us moms will fight the rest of our lives... if my mom is any example. i want to be in school- excerising my brain! i want to be working and contributing to my household... but that means my kids miss out on their mom and thats not fair.
when i talk to my friends who are in school or who have graduated or are graduating... or i just see a picture of someone in my class graduating college i feel so small. and i get this feeling in my stomache, like i feel sick with guilt or jealousy. my whole life i dreamed of graduating college and then i dreamed of my wedding. i dreamt of being this woman with a career and brains... brains for miles... brains coming out my ears! and then...
i hear God.
and he says "your children are a gift", "i'm in control", "its my plan", "take care of my children", "continue to listen to me", "love and respect your husband" and then i exhale and remember that my life is full of God, and love, and my very own warm household, and my very own little family, and hugs from little hands, and slobber kisses, and my josh who loves me and protects me.

college will come in God's time. but for now i have important business; bedtime stories, potty training and the like.


for your viewing pleasure






and my boys.





its my life.

Thanks God :o)














Monday, April 13, 2009

that boy...

dog comes home this week. oh me oh my.





and i'm working 2 whole days this week. holy moly what will i do!?





and tate's first t-ball game is saturday... yay! details to come after practice on wednesday.





i think tate broke a record for how many times a kid has been on timeout. ugh. i'm exhausted.
PEACE OUT


an oldie but a goodiereason for the oldies? my camera is broken.
good news: june (new camera $$) is closer.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

easter and the princess

so i'm watching bridezilla's right now. these women are ridiculous.


anyway. easter was so nice and relaxed... although, we were missing a few family members. the easter bunny came last night and hid 11 eggs (would have been tweleve but i have a 3 year old) and the kids quickly found them. tate was so suprised at "that silly easter bunny!"

daddy spent the morning trying to convince him that easter eggs are infact easter bunny poop. this kid went from annoyed that daddy could be so ignorant to very upset at how disrepectful he was being to the easter bunny... insisting he had pooped in THE LIVING ROOM.


church service was nice, but lonely sitting there in my sunday "best" all by myself. rick cassels gave the sermon... which i love. he's hilarious and loves his family and also has four small children(!) so he is often on my page. i sat in the same pew as terri cassels and her kids all dressed in matching orange easter outfits. her girls complete with white flip flops topped with orange gerberas. adorable.


at the end of the service, during the alter call everyone bowed to pray, and i usually use that time to pray and reflect on my own walk. ok not usually- always. but today i just felt moved to pray for all of the fathers and husbands in the room. i prayed for leadership in their households inspired by God's direction and word. and as we ended the prayer i looked up to see men leading their wives and a few leading their sons down to the front of the stage to be led in prayer and prayed over! God bless their hopefully renewed families!


so i am so excited to announce that my little girl will be walking down the aisle soon... as a flower girl! the bride, Kim (Josh's co-worker and bromance Josh Irwin's fiance) will be picking out her dress soon, but i am secretly hoping to find out her colors and then find some one of a kind on etsy or some masterpiece of a dress at one of my favorite little boutiques and then suggest it to her :o) -we will see. i'm just excited because weddings are so stinkin fun and romantic! i hope kim and josh realize that addison is 17 months old and may wonder off the aisle or lick some petals or not throw petals at all... or cry and run to mom, or need chocolate to coax her. or completely steal the show and make everyone forget about the bride because she's so sweet it hurts.


tate is now peeking down the stairs for like the one hundredth time tonight so i had better go beat him a little. with love of course.


so naughty!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

peeps n puppies

sara said i have to blog or else we won't be friends anymore.
in those exact words.

first: let me ask everyone to please not tell my husband that i spent forty-seven dollars on crap for two easter baskets. he'll find out in a day or two when he looks at his bank account... or tomorrow morning when the children awake to find bulging baskets filled by the magical easter mommy.

also, will someone please tell me why when you buy peeps it's impossible to find a package without like FIFTY little chickens made of sugar? who on earth really needs 24 of those things? i have like a lick and feel a little diabetic. i'm not really sure i want to see my kids on easter basket crack... 24 pieces of easter basket crack.



last easter




although, not thrilled for the candy free-for-all it is exciting to see Tate begining to comprehend things like easter. we read the story of easter in his beginers bible tonight and when he saw the picture of the cross he asked if Jesus was "in there, mom?"- how do you explain He was on it not in it... uhhh? i said "kind of", which he accepted. when things got confusing we went back to Jesus loves you, and mommy, and daddy, and grandpa, and grammy... and that's why the easter bunny comes. and he was like lets throw the eggs now. bless his heart.





in recent family news... i told josh we could get a dog. making a long story short about finding a bulldog puppy-the right bulldog puppy- for under $2500, we are picking up our new puppy next week when she will have reached 6 weeks old. i am petrified that i will be stuck potty training, and cleaning stains, and bathing, and grooming not only my children and husband but also a small puppy on my own. however, if it so happens that hubs takes care of the puppy as planned i will love him forever and celebrate with lots of relations... as long as the dog is not watching.
(look at our puppy's brother here. the breeder took down the picture of our girl because she's not for sale anymore but... she looks pretty much like her brother.)
so now that puppy is coming hubs almost has our backyard enjoyable, which is so nice. i can sit out there and let the kids go crazy, running into walls, eating dirt, and burying toys. oh and we chose a name; moose/moosey. dont judge us. considering josh's previous pets were... are you ready for this? spooky, stormy, sandy, cloudy, and i don't remember the rest. my family's last pets are buddy, sam, and peter- dumb. now what do you think of moose? by the way... who do you think added the "y" to moose...?

this guy.




example of a strong-willed child.


kaleb michael. whose name my son says more than any other 3 yr old to ever live.


(just found this sara and had to share :o)